Can I do better??

Woke up early in the morning and felt god damn tired...so I think I must not had a good night for last night...having nightmare all the while!!! when can I get off of this?? starting to work work work, then he can act like I am not there, ya, he's right, may be I am transparent for him..anyway, I still have to do my thing well..I have bought breakfast for him but he din even wanna see me so I rather to throw it away instead of eating them..he not doing a great job in sales, at first I have decided not to help him but BullShit sin lan will not do that..spend half day to help him on his catalog...I know I wont get a "thank you" from him..but is ok..I just wanna do my part..and promise will slowly let go..just need more time..

I trying not to bother if he will wishing me good morning, afternoon or night..and dont bother will he call or message me..I am trying my best to do that..he can made it, he had tried before not to call me back when I had called him for few times...then my staff call him straight away he answer..how hurt was that?? so come on sinlan..why you wanna feel sad for that if he dont have feeling ..Although I am the kind who always love to have feeling of romance and surprise, this time I realize I wont get that any more so give me some time..I realize he wont do anything for me any more, so please always remember that he wont..so I wont get hurt again from that...he rather call his friend, uncle or god mother for chatting instead of me....stop thinking about him lolz..wake up, wake up..

I am now still confusing if I wanna take CAT..?? any idea friend?? afraid of too tired, afraid of collapse soon...so let me think first...I may be can handle that because I dont have to spend time for dating, or may be I should say I dont have date anymore..no one date me..!! so for who else viewing my blog please feel free to call 9880129 for chatting..I love chatting on fon..I wanna to smile from my heart, I wanna to be happy like who I am last time..
I am damn happy today to knew that my best friend Alice and Gigi still my best friend who concern about me..I still have them with me..thank lot and sorry for my busy life..going out with them tomorrow..happy..yippie!!! wanna be strong again one day..bless me...have a good night please...too tired for everything...