Painfulllllll...........

Another busy week...huhh...I dunno what should I do now...How can I help him??...My final exam is on 10th of DEC, but I din even touch the text book or everything yet...I am just thinking how to find money..For my kl and hong kong trip..and for him too...I actually collecting money for my further study in Australia, but now got little problem that cause me stop thinking about australia...I really wanna leave malaysia as soon as possible ..I wish Ms Christine could arrange all my major subject for my next semester..because I hope can finish earlier and make decision faster..I hate to live in Malaysia anymore..anyway, His problem is my problem too...I dunno why he dont wan to share the problem together..may be the feeling of sharing is over..I really wish I could share with him what ever is it...if in poor life, we can work hard together..if is sad, we can talk together...this is LOVE...But one hand cant clap..so, I cant do anything..just try hard to help him...
Hahaz...past few days was really a memorable and enjoyable days...spend time with my best friend, HARN, RUIGIE, ALICE, and LAW...singing...hehez...I really like to spend time with them to forget my sadness and those problems..Previously, when singing with those girl, they dont like to rap my husband(JAY) song....but when singing with harn and law..they can rap with me..hahaz....RUIGIE and Alice like so shy to sing de..hahaz...espeacially TANRUIGIE...then, that day HARN and RUIGIE sing "xuan zhe"...I feel little jealous...and of course I felt so sweet to see them like this..I wish I can too..but..anyway, I know who I am now...hahaz..behave ok...I really wish their relation will last forever and ever..I can only continue wishing people to get the best partner or lover in their real life...Because I am always living in the dream..which I wish I will not wake up any more..hahaz...
Today, I went to oasis to do the eyeliner tattoo..huhhh...damn pain pain...beauty KILL...Sometime, I am wondering that some of the will suffer for thier beauty...is it really important.??of course I wanna to be pretty too but I afraid of pain...hahaz....I rather to be normal..hahaz..after the tattoo session then me and alice went to MF...hahaz..huhh...weight increasing but some of the CM decreasing lolz...I dunno is it a bad or good news for me...is weird rite?? weight increase but CM decrease..I thought it should be the same...I mean if this increase then that will too...hahaz..After MF, we went YC with dear hong hong, law and joei wei...damn syok...we use to say diet diet diet but we will end up with food in our stomach..hahaz..Then, we start to "chui shui" , "blow water" ....hahaz...keep chatting...Alice is the one who always break the rhythm..hahaz...coz she is cinderella...which must go back house earlier ..if not her mum will turn to tiger or lion lolz...to "DIU" her...While blowing water, I received his msg...which stated" take more rest and good care"..huhh..I dunno what to reply so I just delete it as usual..coz I dont wan to make myself to think those impossible thing..hahaz..smart rite?? Actually I am happy to see that msg..but is it mean anything??? is just a msg rite?? friend sending msg to another friend to concern bout her...huhh...yaya..I should think this way..haiz...
After send the CINDERELLA back then I went to pray..I saw Chasel, my dad's best friend which is a handsome man...hahaz...his little tummy is growing slowly le..hehez...he askes about him again...then he tell me that he is so busy and doing another part time job at night...hmm..mmm...My hurt feel so pain to heard about that...Why he do that??I thought I already tell him to take more rest and dont make himself too tired coz I will help him..I promise will help...no matter what...so pls..god bless him...
Tomorrow is saturday again..nightmare starting...tough weekend again...coaching for the whole day in the damn hot court and facing those CLEVER kids...huhh...nightmare nightmare...hahaz...so I think I need to rest my painful eye..if not I wonder how my eye will turn to..hahaz...dear alive and ruigie and harn and law and hong..I sudden missing you all so much now..all of you are part of my life now..hahaz...nite nite ya...and good nite to him too...wish him will have a very good rest and sweet dream..