Now is the time for us to rewind the whole year of 2010..what we have did? what good and bad thing we have did in year 2010..from january to december...and what we had promised to do but cant make it in 2010..I hate January because I started work seriously in Jan..haiz, started the job that I not really want which working in my dad's company...then Feb, not really remember what have I did, hmm...rewinding!!!!!! CNY in Feb, happy CNY...March, april and may busy with those competition ..and one thing I really hate is those player's parents, they really bullshit..we have coach till their son and daughter got into BJ sportschool but then they keep telling outsider that we lie to them , we this and that...what the FFFF..hope god will punish them, punish their ugly mouth..
I feel like cant get a good story once we step into the working life, is like keep routine and routine, always rush for this and that..tension for everything..that all about WORK..nothing really happening..until I went for Korea trip early Dec...love the tour so freaking much..love the place, love the cold weather, love the tour leader..just love..had memorable and enjoyable trip..will definitely go Korea again..I love Ski, I love Kimchi...I love Korea....and now come to the last day of year 2010, time flies........annual stock check againz..arghhhh...hate this most..anyway, we have to face it also, come on...just fight for it..hope everything go smooth on the last day of 2010..god bless...
Sleep well and tight, so that able to keep full energy for the last day of 2010...
all the best to all Hup Heng's worker..keep fighting dude..!! Good night world..
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Merry Christmas to the world and also me
Went out for Christmas celebration with law, alice, susan, joei woei and 3 of the junior..happy to have them in this christmas, although I am not that merry..Have totally no plan in all the festive season so I put lot hope in my friend to date me..please do that always dude..haha:)
25 DECEMBER 2010, Saturday...Sin Lan is not happy now..who going to cheer me up?? then 26 Dec, continue to be moody alone...then 27 Dec is the day I scared most..but who know, and who going to bother how I feel..continue to pretend to be alright, to be happy...stop all those bullshit..I am not happy now, but who going to bear with me?? chong?? I love him so much but how he treat me?? his family and friends are all important than me..and in all those festive season he wont have a plan and wont wish me at all...come on...just wanna to be happy now...but who care if I happy rite now or not??...
In such cold christmas night, crying alone in this lonely room...I am all alone here..where's santa?? come make me smile please..I thought he will stay for me today, tomorrow till 27 ..he dont know that I will feel scared if I stay alone?? sure..he never try to understand me..he know only hurt me..this is what I get from him..who should I share my feeling with?? no one???? someone please answer me..who's there for me???
BE strong...be yourself, be sin lan...try to let go girl...have a good night and merry chritmas..promise..
25 DECEMBER 2010, Saturday...Sin Lan is not happy now..who going to cheer me up?? then 26 Dec, continue to be moody alone...then 27 Dec is the day I scared most..but who know, and who going to bother how I feel..continue to pretend to be alright, to be happy...stop all those bullshit..I am not happy now, but who going to bear with me?? chong?? I love him so much but how he treat me?? his family and friends are all important than me..and in all those festive season he wont have a plan and wont wish me at all...come on...just wanna to be happy now...but who care if I happy rite now or not??...
In such cold christmas night, crying alone in this lonely room...I am all alone here..where's santa?? come make me smile please..I thought he will stay for me today, tomorrow till 27 ..he dont know that I will feel scared if I stay alone?? sure..he never try to understand me..he know only hurt me..this is what I get from him..who should I share my feeling with?? no one???? someone please answer me..who's there for me???
BE strong...be yourself, be sin lan...try to let go girl...have a good night and merry chritmas..promise..
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Too much!!!!
There sure be something happen when I wanna start my blog every time..sigh..include this time, my neighbour need our help because they forgot to bring their key, huhh....help them to break into their house and now decided that I must put some words here no matter what on tonight...
These day I have too much thought that keep appears in my mind, just too much until I can well digest all of that..I never thought that I am perfect, I never thought that I am as bad luck I am in this year, I also never thought that I am a lucky girl because since I was young I never fully achieve what I have target, include a very famous Badminton Champion, a very pretty girl, lot more...just cant get through all this thought, BUT...slowly tell myself that I am lucky to have a family like this, all of them take very good care of me, love me and for sure I love all of them so much too...I love my dear dad and mum, my eldest bro, 2 of my lovely cute younger bro...and of course GIGI..and I gonna thank god that gave Chong to me..although he is not perfect as other but for me that is enough, love him so much actually, just so much that word cant describe..thank god...I definitely a lucky girl when I think of my grandma, grandpa, uncle and aunt ...they love me so much too..especially my grandma and uncle, they do lot of things for me..thank you very much and love them so much...I am lucky to have friends like alice, weihong, ruigie, law, sheau yueh and lot more...best friend ever..and not forgotten my powerpuff team, jeslyn pang and amelia..I am already a lucky girl for all this, not everyone have this opportunity...I have it...I should appreciate this..
This year is not my year so there sure be some problem occur...I really cant accept what have god gave me once I knew that..cant believe something growing inside my body, just dont wan to accept that happened..too down too sad at that time, but after I settle all those thought, I am totally fine and happy to accept that...I know I am not strong like those time but sometime I will not think of how worse my body or energy is, I will still work and keep think, I afraid that I cant do all this thing when something come to the end..I must show all my love to all of my love ones..
One thing I really hate is "going for doctor alone"..I just hate going hospital alone and I need to bear all the problem alone..can someone promise me that will accompany me for doctor every time I need ...I dont like the feeling to be alone now..nowadays, I need to take quite lot medicine in a day..huhh...in this age already need lot medicine, sometimes I will feel fed-up with my self and those medicine..I am sad but no one know..they keep telling "no worries, u sure need to have all that because u r sick now"...huhh...I dont wan to be sick lolz..who can help..I guess no one gonna help me on this..
I am happy that I am actually a very lucky girl and hope my evil thought cant fight my lucky, happy angel thought forever..and hope my lucky angel will continue to bring me more luck in future, I promise to accept everything ..next monday will be the day (27 dec 2010), I need to face that..I am freaking freaking scared about that actually but I cant tell anyone face to face of course, need to be strong enough to face it..I dont wan make everyone worry about me too much..and wanna shout out to the world that I love those who love me so much so much...just too much...deep from heart..god bless all of you..night world...
These day I have too much thought that keep appears in my mind, just too much until I can well digest all of that..I never thought that I am perfect, I never thought that I am as bad luck I am in this year, I also never thought that I am a lucky girl because since I was young I never fully achieve what I have target, include a very famous Badminton Champion, a very pretty girl, lot more...just cant get through all this thought, BUT...slowly tell myself that I am lucky to have a family like this, all of them take very good care of me, love me and for sure I love all of them so much too...I love my dear dad and mum, my eldest bro, 2 of my lovely cute younger bro...and of course GIGI..and I gonna thank god that gave Chong to me..although he is not perfect as other but for me that is enough, love him so much actually, just so much that word cant describe..thank god...I definitely a lucky girl when I think of my grandma, grandpa, uncle and aunt ...they love me so much too..especially my grandma and uncle, they do lot of things for me..thank you very much and love them so much...I am lucky to have friends like alice, weihong, ruigie, law, sheau yueh and lot more...best friend ever..and not forgotten my powerpuff team, jeslyn pang and amelia..I am already a lucky girl for all this, not everyone have this opportunity...I have it...I should appreciate this..
This year is not my year so there sure be some problem occur...I really cant accept what have god gave me once I knew that..cant believe something growing inside my body, just dont wan to accept that happened..too down too sad at that time, but after I settle all those thought, I am totally fine and happy to accept that...I know I am not strong like those time but sometime I will not think of how worse my body or energy is, I will still work and keep think, I afraid that I cant do all this thing when something come to the end..I must show all my love to all of my love ones..
One thing I really hate is "going for doctor alone"..I just hate going hospital alone and I need to bear all the problem alone..can someone promise me that will accompany me for doctor every time I need ...I dont like the feeling to be alone now..nowadays, I need to take quite lot medicine in a day..huhh...in this age already need lot medicine, sometimes I will feel fed-up with my self and those medicine..I am sad but no one know..they keep telling "no worries, u sure need to have all that because u r sick now"...huhh...I dont wan to be sick lolz..who can help..I guess no one gonna help me on this..
I am happy that I am actually a very lucky girl and hope my evil thought cant fight my lucky, happy angel thought forever..and hope my lucky angel will continue to bring me more luck in future, I promise to accept everything ..next monday will be the day (27 dec 2010), I need to face that..I am freaking freaking scared about that actually but I cant tell anyone face to face of course, need to be strong enough to face it..I dont wan make everyone worry about me too much..and wanna shout out to the world that I love those who love me so much so much...just too much...deep from heart..god bless all of you..night world...
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