Can the word SORRY change everything....

Busy day so no time to post any blog...of course the busy also content lazy lolz...hahaz...I should start my blog from monday...He tell me that he will come kuantan on tuesday..huhh...I cant fall sleep on that night...keep thinking for the whole night then sleep for couple hours then wake up damn early de...hahazz..excited..he tell me that he will be reach at 1.30..then me and alice wait for him to come on time...huhh..I am thinking how should I act in front of him while waiting..manatau...he 2.30 only reach lolz...I am rushing to court coaching lolz..then when reach court I just leave my car for him and alice...I din even see his face yet...although I really feel to see or just have a look...I am scared anyway..after coaching, he come to fetch me..he came with alice and ruigie...my little bro sit in front and 3 of us sit at the back..I look at him from the back..Feel like wanna go hug him..huhh...then after bath we have our dinner at hong kong restaurant..I drive to ECM..I saw one bottle of mineral and one shirt in my car...suddenly, I feel the sweetness that I thought I will not feel it again..I feel so touch actually..I know it was him...While eating,I always curi curi look at him ..I am actually missing him lot that till I cant imagine how much I miss him...After dinner, we went home..I straight away sit in front of tv and my dad's laptop...start playing mahjung there...then he take cup of water for me..huhh..dunno how to respond anyway..it been long time...I missing the feeling so muchie muchie..then he sit beside me...but we dunno what to chat..suddenly, he touch my face softly like previous...And tell me that I am thin dy...then ask me whether I am tired not...after that,Harn call me for drink..I went with them..huhh...I am sorry that I am a bit Lan Si..But I really dunno what to say and how to act in front of him..I am so sorry about that...
I should just shorten the story...He keep telling sorry sorry and sorry...He tell my the truth about why he wanna hurt me like that and why he leave me..He said he making wrong decision ...because of his own problem..he dont wan me to suffer..I feel happy to know the truth and his explanation...thank lot ya...He wan to be with me again..and ask whether he still got a chance or not...I dunno how shold I answer him anyway...I tell him the truth that actually I still love him so much but I scare to fall into the love river ...because I really afraid of the feeling of hurt..it is really sad and feel like dying...so I rather love him from far away...I really scared how if he hurt me again..coz I really love him more than I think...He went back on thursday...Early in the morning somemore,he wake me up late..so I straight away sent him go bus station lolz..When he walk far away from my car, I can feel my eye in heating and feel like start crying...coz I dont wan him walk away from me anymore..will he promise me??? to stay with me forever and ever..???
Anyway,I should not decide anything now...and my parents not allow me to answer him also..so let the god to decide lolz...the most important is I should help him to overcome his problem first ...To reduce his burden...God bless him ya....HAHAz...My exam in on next wed but till now I am still relaxing..come on, check it out...I should start my revision lolz..dont be lazy ya..gambateh yop...Tomorrow only start study la..hehez...now wanna watch movie and have my sweet dream ...nite..Hope that my fon will appear his call or message..coz missing him...